Lazy? Not so much, just overwhelmed!

I debated changing the name of this blog to: Confessions of an overwhelmed Mommy/Violinist/Teacher/Housekeeper/Wife/Runner/Yoga Enthusiast/Fair-Weather Vegan/Sister/Daughter/Friend.  But you know, it just didn't have the right ring to it.  I would no longer describe myself as a lazy violinist.  I am anything but lazy.  I am running running running all the time.  Changing diapers, wiping noses, nursing, cleaning, dishes, cooking dinner, teaching my students, spending a few spare minutes with my husband, or practicing, or exercising, I have no time to be lazy!  If I have a chance to practice, it better be good practice, because I don't have time to mess around!  Today, I took advantage of a few happy-baby minutes to do some metronome work.  I recently started looking at Paganini's 16th Caprice.  Today I worked it up from quarter=60-76.  As you can hear, it is far from perfect.  It gets dicey especially near the end.  Here are some happy baby moments.

http://youtu.be/117ulWePg2A

Talent? No sir!

One of my very favorite books about practicing and about musicianship, is a book called The Musician's Way by Gerald Klickstein.  I highly recommend this book to anyone who wants to be a good musician, or who wants to make their practice more effective and fun.  In fact, I would recommend this book to EVERYONE.  It is a wonderful book, and it has helped me immensely.

One of the most important concepts covered by the book is that "musical progress depends more on practice than on talent."  This idea is incredibly important to me.  While many people apply the label "talented" to musicians, or athletes, or whoever, it seems like this is an excuse for mediocrity in myself.  "I can't play like that, I'm not as talented."  "I can't perfect this piece, I don't have the talent."  And so on, and so forth.  A discouraging cycle.

However, if talent isn't so important, and work is then why not do my best to become my best?  If work is more important, there is NO REASON why I cannot become a world-class violinist, or cook, or teacher, or whatever I choose to be.  The only thing stopping me is myself.  I am choosing to either limit myself, or push myself to the moon.
Another great book on this subject is The Talent Code by Daniel Coyle.  In this book, Coyle discusses the qualities that seem to be inherent in truly successful people.

Those who we consider to be "talented," it seems have merely worked harder and smarter than everyone else.

I don't know about anyone else, but I am very encouraged by the fact that my genes don't prohibit me from becoming someone great.  My actions can turn me into the person of my choosing, and I can control my actions.  My genes?  Not so much.
So get to work everybody!!!

Tossed off the bandwagon

I realize it is pretty shameful that I fell off the bandwagon so soon after my blogging efforts began, but I have a good excuse!  Remember, that audition I was preparing for?  I have been doing some soul-searching and I realized it just wasn't the right thing for me.  My pride really liked the idea of a major symphony audition, and a major symphony spot.  But that was all it was, just a little stroke for my ego.  I remembered how much I disliked having a boss, having to rehearse on someone else's schedule, and how much I hate playing the violin while sitting in a chair.  (I really prefer standing up while I play.)

Also, if I beat impossible odds, and happened to actually win a spot, would that make me happy?  I would have to give up a lot of my students, and commute...I just couldn't bring myself to say goodbye to my students.  Although, being a member of a professional symphony is the ultimate goal for a professional violinist, I honestly don't think I would enjoy it.  So, if it wouldn't make me happy, why am I putting so much effort into it?  If it isn't what I really want, why am I investing so much time, money, and stress in it?

So, I decided to withdraw.  And I feel GREAT.  I'm playing some pieces I have wanted to play for a while, but haven't had the time.  I am eating healthy, I am spending time with my husband, and things are great.  But best of all, my stress level has gone down about 100%, and my practicing is revitalized.  I am starting fresh and working on some very specific technique goals.  I am starting from scratch, and relearning how to play.

More to come on tackling Ravel's Tzigane!

Getting Started!

Hello everyone!
I have never been much of a blogger, but I never really had much to write about so why bother, right?  Well, now I'm trying to make some serious changes in my life, and regardless of whether anyone would want to read about it, I would like to document my journey.
I am an aspiring classical violinist and am working on furthering my career, and as most people know musicians have to PRACTICE.  A lot.  Unfortunately, although I love violin and it is my passion, practicing isn't.  I would love to tell you that I have this inner drive that pushes me into the practice room for days at a time, but I don't.  Honestly, I would rather snuggle up in front of the television with a carton of ice cream and an entire season of Criminal Minds than turn on my metronome and get to work.  I would love to say that once I get my fiddle out, I am so in the zone that I lose track of time and become absorbed in the work ahead of me.  That is not the case.
This being said, I want to practice.  I want to improve myself, and I want to play beautifully.  But how to do it?
One obstacle is the time required.  I have thirty-five violin students.  THIRTY-FIVE.  This translates to about thirty hours of actual teaching time every week, which doesn't include lengthy phone calls with parents about their child's progress, scheduling, concerns, etc.  Don't get me wrong, I love teaching, and I adore all of my students, but it is exhausting.  When I finish teaching for the day, I don't have a lot of time or energy to devote to practicing.  This means I need to be completely efficient and focused during the limited hours I have.

I have fallen off the practicing bandwagon a little bit due to these busy circumstances, but I need to get my rear in gear to get ready for an audition for a professional symphony in September.  I want to be as prepared and confident as I can.

In this blog, I am going to discuss my techniques for practice, how I inspire myself, and how I make the most of my time.
I am so excited to share my musical progress with you all!